i just cant imagine. unbelieveable yet living in fantasy. it's not within my control. wanting to, but difficult. it starts to change th from that moment onwards. but, i dont think its possible. i chose not to believe, but i saw it w my own eyes. i couldnt change them anw. guess this shld be th right way.i kept thinking whether im getting too much of it, i just cant seem to control. i cant tell whether this is true or for that moment only.
i just cant let it go despite constant reminders to myself. perhaps i've sunk too deep that i wont be able to float up. now that i've realise, probably this is wht you've been telling me right from th start. i shouldnt have believe you.